moon

The moon is beautiful...wish I could wander around tonight and watch it...with someone special :)

want to climb trees, but gotta work

Would love to be in nature more this summer. I really need to make a priority. I'm so tired after work...just chillin'. But went to pool last night :)

tired and need some food and then dvd and then walking round I think. Looking forward to end of week!!

A good tired...

And it's a good tired...from working out today and being outside.

I had day off and went to gym---elliptical machine, bike, treadmill, jacuzzi. I didn't work out a lonnnng time but I'm tired.

And may actually get 8 or more hours sleeep!

Need to do some work stuff. Will have to manana.

I'm excited to read fiction book I like.

I think more and more...I'm not going to fit 28 hours into 24 hour days...
and just go to sleep when tired.

Can I really do this? Hopefully...I think it will change a lot!

Gift Card

My Aunt, Nancy is totally a mind reader==similar to my sister.

Got Target giftcard and this will help me with some things needed...

Soooo thoughtful of her!

Today was really smooth and not disjointed. I think it had a lot to do with me lying down on grass in nature and going into meditation.

Beach was beautiful===all was really great!

This quote rings true for me

“Religion is for people who are afraid of hell. Spirituality is for people who have already been there.”–Running Hawk, Lakota Nation (Pine Ridge)

Oooh geez===I have been thru hell but have come out of it alive...hate to go into that, but yep==have been thru what some call "dark night of the soul"...pain, loss, the works.

And "I...IIIII...I'm still alive"=Pearl Jam.

Tides

Tremendous growth
I feel in my spirit.

It's full and lovely and strong...the pounding heart inside of me.

And less doubtful remarks to self are apparent.

The tides that covered the sand and then withdrew...those tides don't effect me as much as I plod on and try to gracefully live this life.

Environment

Meeting in this environment
makes me feel some heat in my heart
but confusion for the last dialogue
and wonder for what we were doing
discussing random things that made no sense
for the present time.

Every book has an ending but sometimes it doesn't feel this way.

The ending isn't really resolved, but is left hanging
until someone decides to settle it all out...and iron out what was not smooth.

And so I go on...a tad wiser and look straight toward delight, love, truth.

But I'm lingering on your face and don't know how to answer a simple hello.

For a reason...

Everything pretty much happens for a reason I've come to find out...

So tonight I was at a So. African Restaurant locally...Mozambique. And was looking forward to meeting Sister and talking to her only and catching up.

Before she comes...I recognize a friend I haven't seen forever...and then she joins my sister and I at table.

I had a bit of an attachment toward spending time with my sister because she didn't have much time before she left for LA to see friends. I was pleased to see friend who has so much wit and is funny as all get out. I looked at my sister's expression and she was enjoying her company too. Sister and I didn't get to chat much but friend showing up brought lots of fun and laughs to table. We all talked about a make up sale, Portland, guys, and OBAMA.

I politely went to say bye to friend, but her friend was trying to chat with me more and wouldn't let go of my hand. Her friend was perfectly nice...but not now! I gots to go!! And my sister has a drive up to LA...soooo buh bye for now! It made me want to go dancing again with this friend who I initially greeted and other pals locally. We used to get together for birthdays...Libra parties, Virgo parties,etc. We celebrated the goddesses in ourselves. It was fun!

It's a new year! Resolutions!!! :)

1. More sleep
2. organize things better==feel the planner thing in book "7 daily habits of effective people" works well...cause I feel the brain remembers things and carries out activities, goals more once written down.
3. Write more and start sending work out for publication.
4. Get back to running. And lots of other exercise on regular basis.
5. Not second guessing self. If I have a vibe...go with that.
6. Work not as many overtime hours.
7. plan really well for upcoming travel!
8. Create a great balance with family, friends, travel, love, taking care of apartment stuff, the works!
9. less time on computer...more time out in nature and going to spiritually fulfilling events.
10.Loving, fulfilling relationship.
11.Growth in work
12.Doing things that bring joy more: Dance, yoga, hiking, etc,etc...writing poetry!
13.more loving time with family==on phone, in person. Activities/events with them.
14. Eat better==make sure to eat at appropriate times. Bring snax places :)
15. Laugh more! Let things go that I can't control==turn to spirit to figure things out more.
16. Meditate more deeply.
17. Say no more frequently so I don't run on empty.
18. Have fun! And create loving interactions! Kindness and heartfulness :)
19. Interesting, stimulating conversations about the world, creating peace,etc.
20. Create opportunities for another place to live that suits me, career growth, moments of substance/down to earthness :)
21. Be on time when I need to be on time...more frequently :)
22. Take time to plan, budget,declutter,etc.
23. Keep serving.